Ive come out of hiding out

Geez ....... Hmmmm... Yep , I've been in hiding, i couldn't budge past 109.2 kilos and kept going between that weight and 110.5 ( current weight AGAIN) its driving me absolute bonkers,i have changed scales and  i understand that i may be at a plateau but fark im only 6 kilos down, so ive probably dropped the fluid, its so frustrating.. i know my eating could be a hell of a lot cleaner and it will be come tomorrow , but i have been working my butt off with exercise.

I got my Jfdi hat on friday and it put me back into perspective, i did my fitness test for 12WBT and i was surprised
Here are my stats:

1k run = 8.01 seconds
wall sit =1.10 seconds
ladypushups in 1 min =25
AB level =2
sit and reach =+9

                               ^^^ here i am in my new hat
Great reminder that i just need to fucking do it sometimes, i know its not easy and i know its never gonna be easy, i think alot of it comes down to the mental battles i have, skinny mini V'S fattycakes i like to call it, im so used to having fat days and eating fat food and wearing fat clothes i like easy, i need to learn to like hard because i dont want to be fat, i know this program is alot more than a quick cure and i will get to the point were the numbers dont matter but for now i need to tackle my fat urges, and the snacking OMG i need to stop the snacking i think its habit more than anything but i an eat clean for BLD and then screw it all up by picking at food... crazy huh?


Ok so i need to stop complaining and excuses coz i dont do excuses anymore, this is the start of my forever, no turning back , no backing down, no more just one more!
Good luck to everyone starting their journeys tomorrow



 

First PT session ever!!!

OK so Wednesday witnessed my first ever personal training session and i was as nervous as hell!!!
i was up at 630 am , its not unusual for me to be up at that time with the kids but instead of moping around in my pjs until 8 am i was up dressed, joggers on and heading to drop the kids at my MILs
that day we had to go to a kindy catchup and my son had 2 separate doctors appointments, so at any point i could have and would have given up and cancelled rescheduled the session, but i JFDI ( god i love that motto ) And i moved like i have never moved before, i knew at any stage i could literally chuck the towel in and walk out of there.. and i didn't i stuck it out the whole 45 sweaty minutes, My PT max just got it, he didn't expect me to go in guns blazing, the whole time he pushed me, but only so i could understand my own boundaries he made me feel in control of the session which in turn empowered me to keep going, h offered me the chance to catch my breath and took the time to explain everything to me , after the session it took me a good 20 minutes to recover completely, and even then i was still a bit light headed lol..Looking forward to the outdoor session that starts next week , also looking forward to starting zumba and getting back into aqua aerobics

One week off...straight from the heart

I have had 1 week away from the computer and it has been hard, of course I've done a few sneaky looks on facebook, but mostly i have had no time on , and as always instead of focusing my time on diet and exercise i focused on other things, and ate leftover snacky foods from having family stay which lead me too a gain last week, Would love to say its my first ever gain.. but instead its the story of my life .. i start a weight loss plan loose a couple of kilo's start feeling good about myself.. slack off, fall off the wagon and never seem to find my way back.. family are supportive and say the obvious things like " don't worry you will get back into it " and " you look great"  but then i look at my 12wbt family and they are telling me too "suck it up" and JFDI.. and that's what i need to hear i dont ned the mushy crap i need to be told to JFDI... My choice to stay away from the computer was a fence sitter, while i find myself spending too much time on facebook i need to be able to get on and get some inspiration from the 12wbter's and JFDI when I'm having a crappy day , or check out some of the amazing before and after shots.. there's motivation handed to you on a plate
So the motto to Katie's story is like everything in my life i need to find a BALANCE.. In food, exercise, facebook, time with friends and family...Time for myself

Its phototime- me at various stages of my weight gain

Ok so i have been searching through some photos and i found one that was taken about 4 months before i fell pregnant... its not a body shot but its a time in my life that i was 68 kilo's and still thought i was fat ( so it appears I've always had a few weight issues ) AGE 17 2003

The next one is taken in nov 2005 age 19 i had 2 babies within 11 months, and as you can tell I'm extremely sleep deprived not alot of time for me i was 113 kgs

the next photo is the one that shows how my world was torn apart just 7 months after the last photo was taken, the love of my life was diagnosed with cancer

2006 was a wake up call i managed with the help of weightwatchers by 2007 to get down to 98.5 kilos

then we go the news that against all odds baby number 3 was on the way and as i had done in the past i used this a way to eat what i like July 2008 113.5 kgs

And before i knew it i was back to using the same excuses as before, i have no time, it so much easier to get takeaway, I'm to tired to work out i used every excuse known, may 2010 106 kilos

October 2010 unsure of my weight but i no those tummy tuck undies don't work, i look pregnant

January 2011 114 kilos

April 2011 114.5 kilos

and this one was the eye opener i weighed my self the following weeks and weighed 116.6 kilos this is my heaviest recorded weight

And that is it that is what made me change my mind and start michelle bridges 12wbt i spoke to an amazing friend of mine Melanie Ballard and she gave me as much info as she could and it was up to me to do the rest, so i did since this photo was taken i have dropped 7.2 kilo's and cannot wait to start my journey with 12 wbt to drop the rest

12wbt eve

I feel like a little kid at Christmas time, waking up to the unknown..
I know that tomorrow means a complete overhaul of my life, my family's life , this affects more than just me.
I know that tomorrow means i have to get off my arse and JUST FUCKING DO IT..  put the joggers on and go for a walk/jog/ Pilate's.. and the soon to be dreaded PT session i will b starting next week..
I know that tomorrow means no more crap food in the house, eating lunch instead of snacking through the day, no more bags of chips,chocolates, fizzy drink and KFC
I know that tomorrow will be an emotional day as i step on the scales to do an official weigh in ( but will continue with my Wednesday weigh ins ) although i have already lost almost 8 kilos I'm still in the weight range i was when i was 9 months pregnant with my 7 and a half yr old son.. this means i have been over weight for 8 yrs and 3 months.. my baby is 3 and a half
 I also know that i am not the only person going to bed tonight not knowing what the next 12 weeks will bring... and for that I'm thankful.. tomorrow is the start of my forever, no mater what happens, how far i go , how much weight  loose i will never turn back i owe that to my partner,my kids and most importantly MYSELF ...I will get my life back

What a week

The last week has been hectic, he have had people coming and going, and had all different types of get togethers and partys,i have slacked off from the program, i have mainly stuck to my clean eating plan BUT have not done much "exercise" i have done lots of simming and chasing the kids around, walking around parks and beaches but no 'official' exercise, so not expecting a miracle on the scales this week.
But am feeling awesome and full of energy which is awesome, have not felt this good since before i had my bubbas

1st shredder photo

Ok so i have joined some really awesome groups over the last couple of days 12wbt 30 plus Crew awesome support for people that have 30 + kilos to loose ( like me hehe ) ..and SHREDDER FACE on this page you take a photo of your face straight after your workout aswell , tye/distance/timecalories burned etc awesome motivation to look through when your feeling sluggish and you need too JFDI... So i will post my very 1st ever shredder photo after a  3k walk/jog took me 41 mins.. not sure on the calories burnt though, need to nvest in a polar watch... also adding something else to my goals list =)