Ive come out of hiding out

Geez ....... Hmmmm... Yep , I've been in hiding, i couldn't budge past 109.2 kilos and kept going between that weight and 110.5 ( current weight AGAIN) its driving me absolute bonkers,i have changed scales and  i understand that i may be at a plateau but fark im only 6 kilos down, so ive probably dropped the fluid, its so frustrating.. i know my eating could be a hell of a lot cleaner and it will be come tomorrow , but i have been working my butt off with exercise.

I got my Jfdi hat on friday and it put me back into perspective, i did my fitness test for 12WBT and i was surprised
Here are my stats:

1k run = 8.01 seconds
wall sit =1.10 seconds
ladypushups in 1 min =25
AB level =2
sit and reach =+9

                               ^^^ here i am in my new hat
Great reminder that i just need to fucking do it sometimes, i know its not easy and i know its never gonna be easy, i think alot of it comes down to the mental battles i have, skinny mini V'S fattycakes i like to call it, im so used to having fat days and eating fat food and wearing fat clothes i like easy, i need to learn to like hard because i dont want to be fat, i know this program is alot more than a quick cure and i will get to the point were the numbers dont matter but for now i need to tackle my fat urges, and the snacking OMG i need to stop the snacking i think its habit more than anything but i an eat clean for BLD and then screw it all up by picking at food... crazy huh?


Ok so i need to stop complaining and excuses coz i dont do excuses anymore, this is the start of my forever, no turning back , no backing down, no more just one more!
Good luck to everyone starting their journeys tomorrow